Take a Break before you Do
As some of you may know, 2019 didn’t begin very well for me, a series of articles in the press among other things put me into a bit of a depressive tailspin to be honest. One of which I am still navigating my way out of. I had big plans for 2019, especially after being out of action for the previous two years, due to pregnancy complications, ill health and well, babydom. I tried to continue on and realised, I just couldn’t do it. Now for a Do-It-All Mum, this can be a difficult pill to swallow. so I tried to deny myself the break I deserved, until I imploded and exploded, at the same damn time!
I live with depression, and I don’t always need a huge catalyst to have an episode, but this time, I had let things get on top of me, resulting in me almost breaking apart.
Now I am someone who wears her “strong woman” badge with pride, but in the midst of my internal storm, I remembered that sometimes saying no, or taking a break from it all takes a huge amount of strength and courage too. Especially working in the industry I do.
So how am I doing? I’m definitely feeling better. At first I was frustrated with how long it was taking to get over everything. But then I decided to surrender, and just accepted that it was going to take as long as it takes. Being a part of a family, is a huge motivation to me, I don’t want to wear a ‘brave face’ or a fake a smile, I want to actually feel good inside and out. I want to be my best self.
It’s ironic, because I released a video at the beginning of the year all about regaining some sort of control over your mental health issues. At that time I believed I had dealt with my own, unbeknownst to me, the worst was yet to come, the irony is in me having to take my own advice to get myself out of this hole. I can happily report i’m almost there.
What am I doing? well as mentioned earlier, I made a video about this very subject back in January, so I urge you to revisit it if you feel it could be helpful to you or someone you know.
Thanks so much for your patience and kindness over the past few months, I truly have appreciated it.
Taking this break has been incredible for me, and i’m ready to get back to it, so i’ll see you all very soon, with more exciting content!